Time

I was staring for a good 15 minutes trying to remember what was it that I wanted to say. And then it hit me - am I getting so old that I couldn't remember what was on my mind just mere minutes ago? Nah! I began to hypothesize that it was merely one of those random thoughts and ideas that popped into my mind and that although I managed to muster enough will power to get out of my laziness to actually put into words what was on my mind, it was not nearly as interesting for me to commit to memory. That's it! I wasn't half arsed bothered to remember! I wasn't loosing my memory, I just couldn't be bothered.

But why the fear of getting old? After all, it is an inevitability that we all grow old. We can't stop time. Even the food we eat ages and that some food are specifically aged to get the best flavor out of them. So aging is good. Then why do we fear it when it comes to ourselves?

I am totally honest that I am in denial of my true age. Why? Because I can.  I don't feel my age, act my age (sometimes) nor do I want to be confined by society's preconceived notion of what someone my age should be like. It seems that according to society, I should be either married , engaged or in a stable relationship with the goal of getting married sometime soon. Hmmm.... I just don't buy into that. I've seen just one to many 'couples' that fall in society's trap of getting into a marriage simply because it is the right thing to do and becoming stuck in a loveless marriage that either ends in divorce or an endless cycle of lies and cheating simply because they got into the marriage at an early stage and did not know who or what they got themselves into. Don't get me wrong, I'm not at all against the sanctity of marriage, but I just feel too many people get into it because they are under the impression that they have to. That there is a shelf life to every relationship where it needs to end up in a marriage by a certain time frame. What about making sure you're with the right person? Doing the right thing? Somehow these are arbitrary seeing that as long as you're with that someone for a year or two, you're bound to marry that person. Ouch!

That's where the story of age comes in. I'm always amazed that no matter how forward in thinking we have become, the more I realize that we are still backwards in some aspects. That society here still believes that we have to be married by a certain age and that we should all have the perfect married lifestyle complete with the white picket fence. However not all of us subscribe to this theory of getting married at an early age as some of us (me) believe that there's alot more in life to see, explore and cultivate before taking that plunge into holy matrimony.

I also believe that age is merely a number and that who we are is not governed by the number that represent's our age. Be it our real age or perceived age - I sometimes get confused between the two. We are only as old as we seem. I have seen many who are older beyond their years. Some become old at an early age and suddenly discover a second (or lost) childhood in their older age. Some like me never got old but merely wiser and more experienced but never old. Yes there are days that I just like to bum and do nothing and there are days that I'd like nothing more then the party the entire week away. But everything comes in doses and there always seems to be a balance.

So no matter how old you are or how old you think you are. Enjoy life. Enjoy every moment be it with your loved ones, friends, family or total strangers. Enjoy every moment and joys it brings and don't let society dictate what you should or should not do / be merely because of a number. You control who you are and not a number.