Age of Empires

Jeez... I can't believe it that another year is passing and that means another digit added to my age. I really can't imagine I'm actually this old. I'm still coming to terms with turning 30 and another year comes crashing in. I can't keep up...

I still feel like a 20'something and here comes another birthday to help push me further away from that. I've been keeping up this false pretence that I almost forgot how old I am. Shit! That's a sign of ageing isn't it? Loosing your memory? Next thing you know I'll be in a nursery home shitting myself and being spoon fed by a nurse named Carl. Aaaaarrrgggghh... Nooooooo....

I'm reminded of the song ' What's my age again " by Blink 182. Really... what's my age again? Its bad enough that I'm in a whole new age category ( I have to check the other box now ) but do I have to not even know which age group I'm in? And here's where my dilemma starts. I feel 20'ish but I can't exactly relate to that age group. I'm not that into the current music, I've started to reminisce of the songs of 'my time' ... as I type this , Nirvana is playing in the background. I catch myself thinking that they don't make music like they used to in the 90's. Who the hell talks that way? My dad did.. that's who. And he was old. Am I becoming like that?

And another thing I've noticed. I've been passing on advice, saying things like "trust me , I've been there , gone through it.. you're too young to know it now..." Passing on my folksy wisdom to others that have not experienced life. What am I ? Grandpa? Passing on my years of experience before its too late....

But there are some good points to being 'experienced'. I recently had a flat tire - something that hasn't happened to me in years. The first thing I did was go to the side of the road, calmly stop the car , open the boot and get around the business end of changing said flat. Without a complete "Jack" mind you. Just got on with it. No complaints , no huss and fuss. A younger me would be scratching my head off , panicking and calling the whole world. Pretty proud of my little 'mature' moment there.

Experience allows you a different point of view , a calmness under pressure and a sense that you know what to do. Guess there are some good points that only come with age. Shit, I did it again.. another old man comment.....

Oh , my favourite part of living a longer life.... "Don't lie to a liar .. Been there, done that , said that"

Cheers

Cheers!!!